Fear of Creating

I fall asleep right away most nights, and then maybe three, maybe four hours later, I wake. I have a great idea for making one thing or another, and I figure out how to do it and what it will look like.

Sometimes, I even make note of what I want to make.

And eventually I go back to sleep.

Then, the next day, or the day after, I keep thinking about that one thing I want to make, but nine times out of ten, I am petrified of trying to make it. It could be something with fiber, it could be something with wood, it could be an oil painting, even writing – and I find that I am so afraid of failure that I can’t even start the project.

Once in a long while, I break out of that mold, and I do make that thing, and typically, it works out well, someone really loves it and buys it, but then, I find myself back in that hole of being afraid of using my ideas.

I’ve been this way a long, long time.  I am not sure I can change at this point.  All it takes is for one person to tell me I’ll be a failure, and I seem to take that to heart.

So, I endeavor to kick myself in the ass, and try some of these scary new ideas out in the coming weeks.

What have I got to lose, after all!

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Go read the entire fisking …A Sense-Free Opinion Piece

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I’m as snarky as the next person.  However, I have always drawn the line at mocking someone because of their appearance.

Year ago, when Obama was starting his run for the Presidency, I had a lot of women friends, conservative bloggers, as I was,  who made a ton of fun of Michelle Obama because of her appearance.

I am not fan of Obama or his wife, but I cut ties with those women because, to me, criticism of someone’s appearance is shallow and meaningless.  Criticize their political positions, criticize their honesty, criticize their ideas, but for God’s sake, no one has much control over  their appearance.

And I’m sure part of my pique was because so many of the otherwise wonderful conservative women bloggers I was engaged with were quite beautiful women, and, yeah, I am not beautiful.  I’m kind of odd.  Not ugly, but not beautiful or fashionable.

Plus making fun of how someone looks is much more hurtful than just disagreeing with their viewpoints on this, that, or the other.

Today, someone mocked me for my looks. Said I looked like someone who started out as a man and then had a sex change operation.

That hurt me more than almost anything anyone could say about my political positions, my education, my interests, whatever.

So, looking back on things, I know that I was right back some years ago when I broke off ties with those gorgeous conservative women I was aligned with, because it is very hurtful when someone makes fun of how you look.

God made me who I am.  I cannot help it if someone thinks I look like a transgendered man – or is it woman? hell, I don’t know.

So I guess this is a warning to people I know.  Make fun of anyone’s looks, and I will no longer be friends with you.  I don’t care if you are making fun of someone who is politically opposite me – complain about their positions, not their physiques.

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Getting back into shearing the goats

Finally got back into the shearing mood.  I sheared Celieto this afternoon.  She is 2 1/2 year old doe.

I was a bit annoyed with her. She let me lead her up to the shearing stand just fine, and was good for about 5 minutes of shearing. Then she decided she was done, and wiggled and squirmed and even managed to jump off the stand twice.

What should have been a 20 minute simple chore turned into a 50 minute pain in the butt.

Willow and Carly did NOT help one bit.  They kept jumping up on the stand with Celieto. I believe they thought they were helping me.


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Willow is taking ballet lessons.

Kind of, sort of, anyway. 🙂willow 3 willow 5 willow 6 willow 7 willow willow2 willow4

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October Already?

I’ve been busy making stuff, shearing goats and going to arts and crafts shows, and I have neglected my blog.

I have also been busy teaching Willow to stand on her hind legs and dance.  To encourage her, I bought her a tutu.

Hopefully, I’ll have a decent video to show off her new skills, but in the meantime, we do have some cute pre-show stills.headband willow getting ready to dance carly knocked over the tripod. ballerinas have to eat too bow

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I finally started shearing goats today.  Only got two done, Cinnamon and Maggie. I probably should aim for three to four a day each day for the next week.

I am putting the bucks off to last, because I really need John to help me get them on the stand for me, I’m just not strong enough to convince them to walk up that ramp. Plus, if I don’t get a buck done before cold weather strikes, it’s not too worrisome.

The does, though, all need to be sheared because many of them are pregnant, and if they are too hairy, their kids can’t find their teats, and I end up with a bunch of bottle babies. Which is a lot of work, but I usually sell them within a few weeks to people who want to raise bottle babies.

Bottle-raised kids are always friendlier and easier to handle than those who stay with their mamas.  Even as adults, they will come over just to say hi and get a pat or two.

I’ll try to get a photo or two tomorrow of the goats I catch to shear.  It’s awkward trying to take photos of them because I have two kids trying to help me with everything, and they are entirely too curious about cameras.

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EXHIBITION: Patriotic Art Auction to Benefit the Families of the Chattanooga 5

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Shearing Time

I need to get about 25 of my goats sheared in the next couple of weeks.  I shear each of my goats on a grooming stand with a good and sharp electric shears, made for shearing goats and sheep.

It has recently come to my attention that PETA is pushing the lie that shearing goats and sheep is injurious to the animals.  They somehow managed to make a video of a shearer in another country leaving bloody animals.  They advertise: Don’t Buy Wool.

Balderdash and poppy cock.

First of all, I’ve never seen any fiber animal bloodied to that extent before.  I have seen shearers make a mistake and cause some bleeding, and that is one reason why I shear my own animals. Just like hundreds of other people who raise fiber animals.

I’m not the quickest shearer in town, it takes me a good 15 to 20 minutes to completely shear a goat -sometimes longer if there is a lot of VM  (vegetative matter) to get through.

The only time one of my goats bleed is if I trim their hooves just a bit too much – just like a dog’s toenail will bleed if you cut it too short.

I’m angry that this crazy group of people with a record for killing more dogs and cats in their so-called shelters than any other shelter thinks they can demand that the human race stop using wool and mohair and all the other natural fibers that come from animals.

So, I will try to video me shearing one of my goats to show the world that no, animals are not harmed from shearing, and that natural fibers are  most definitely worth purchasing.shearing angel

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Mohair Locks For Sale

I have a total of 8 ounces washed, first clip mohair from Angel, brother of Willow.  I have carefully sheared, washed and picked through his beautiful mohair, which is from about 3 to 5 inches in length.

It is $5.00 per ounce plus actual shipping.

If you are interested, leave me a comment. 🙂

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